M: What are your plans for the future?
A: To continue painting, working, and searching for opportunities, to establish my own voice. Because when you're constantly moving, this life of an immigrant artist really throws you around. If you make yourself dependent on this “artist profession”, then your life depends on whether you and your art are liked by others and whether there is recognition or not. And the possibility of your existence is actually depending on the need to "be liked." And that's what’s difficult when moving from context to context.
In one place you like one thing, in the other you like something different, and that strikes an internal conflict of your existence. It comes under threat if you are already invisible here, disliked, or you’re doing something wrong, and therefore some internal disturbance of self-perception begins. Now I would like to reaffirm what I authentically want to do, without regard to the context, trying to please, achieve recognition and be accepted by the art world. So now it's a path of returning to myself, to the confidence in my artistic vision.
M: Since </odra> has been exploring how the ghost of the Soviet past affects us today: in culture, in art, in society. And what alternative strategies for development and growth exist. Do you feel this ghost in yourself? How does it manifest itself? How to move forward and overcome it, or will it be with us for a long time?
A: The ghost of Sovietness is felt mainly in three areas. The first is education. I suffered greatly from the Soviet education system, I went through and studied it from all sides. And probably I would formulate the ghost of Sovietness for myself like this - “another economy”. There was no connection to do more and faster and to get more. Everything was normalized, it seems to me there was a feeling of a calm, unhurried life. And it seems that they just loved this way of life: to sit, to dwell in some endless feeling of art and this is just such a "ghost of Sovietness" in which I felt myself. When you study in this education system, then you understand that everything you were taught there could have been learned in three years. When I started teaching, my students reached the level of the 4-5th year of the academy from scratch in several classes, not in years. Yes, these people do not have the skill of hourly drawings of a nude, but the understanding of the image comes quickly.
When I got into the real world and left the academy as if from the Soviet Union, I needed to concentrate on issues such as the sales of art, how much it can be in demand or where and by whom it can be in demand. The question of sales arises when the Soviet Union leaves your head. In general, I’ve studied a profession that basically does not exist, I studied monumental painting. There is no vacancy for a monumental artist in our world, but it was in the Soviet Union and it died with it.